Clinical Rotation 1

Anxious. Sad. Scared. Nervous. Uncomfortable.
Those were my first thoughts and feelings that arose this week at the start of our first rotation, long term care. I don't know whether it was because I was expecting something completely different, or because I do not have a lot of experience; but regardless, it was very hard for me. This might not be how anyone else is feeling, but straight from the heart, this is what has really been bothering me. I can understand the few patients that I have seen there who are A&O and I can understand why they are there, but the majority of the patients I've been working with are confined to their beds, cannot communicate with you, and seem like they are in excrutiating pain. If I was in their shoes, I wouldn't want to be alive still. I understand this is heavy stuff and that I'm going out on a limb here by voicing my opinion in this situation, but I just don't get what the point is of living when you cannot remember who you are, what you are doing, and to live in total pain everyday. To me, there's just no point.